I will be soon be turning 94 years old and I want to let you know how very much I love you. I don’t know how many more years, months, weeks, days, hours or minutes I have yet to be with you on this earth, but I do know that God has reserved a place for me in his heavenly kingdom to spend all of eternity with Him if I am blessed to die in a state of grace. Because of my diminished capacity to be culpable for sins I may yet commit (due to my human weaknesses), my sincere trust in God’s mercy, and the virtue of Hope, I believe I will ultimately be welcomed into God’s heavenly kingdom. I pray that you will live your lives in every way that is pleasing to God and that you will be rewarded with a place in Heaven and that we will all be reunited to love and worship our Creator for all eternity. Until then we must continue to pray for all our living and deceased love ones.
I am presently facing many challenges during my remaining time on this earth: physical pains, discomforts and limitations, diminished mental acuity, emotional stress, fears, depression, and loneliness. I miss the independence and all of the physical and cognitive abilities I once possessed. I miss being with you as often as I was previously able. In fact, that is my greatest loss. I hope you miss me too. I also hope that I have not become a burden on you. For me, that would be my greatest burden.
I welcome your cards, letters, phone calls, gifts, flowers, and most of all your visits (though I know some of you live too far away to visit often or at all). Whatever kindness you extend to me during our remaining time together is much appreciated. It is your love that matters most, regardless of how you are personally able to express it.
Some of you live near enough to bring me dinners and snacks and assist me with my house cleaning and personal hygiene needs. Those acts of love are so important even though I may tell you that your companionship is all I need.
Sometimes, perhaps often, my diminished mental capacity, along with my personality traits (perhaps even quirks) may provoke me to be defiant and obstinate when you attempt to assist me. I am truly sorry for that and hope that you will persevere in patience, fortitude and determination so that I may live out my remaining years with you in a spirit of joy and awareness of your love whether you be near or far.
I love you,